Monday Mornings

Monday mornings are a weird beast when you are unemployed.  For the working folks out here, Monday mornings seem to have a multi-faceted association: there is dread for a new work week, anticipation for the unknown, and a re-focusing of oneself after the weekend.

For me, Monday mornings have all that too.  But, its different.  I also have a sense of dread, except its "another week without a job", there is anticipation, except its "maybe this week I'll get the job!", and there is definitely refocusing, except its "I'm gunna stay on top of my shit this week!"

So far this morning, I've walked Lilly (I'm dogsitting for the weekend), made coffee (see below), and breakfast.  I've cleaned my apt, and written about 15 emails.  Soon, I'm going to check my usual job listings to see if anything worth pursuing has been listed (and then check again 5 mins later because you NEVER KNOW!).

The thing is though, at some point there just isn't any more cleaning to do, no more emails I can write today, and once you hit the point, it leaves you with a "huh, now how am I going to spend the day while attempting to spend $0?"  And that is the point where after spending the energy refocusing from the weekend, the wind can get let out of your sails and discouragement can sink in.  It can be a major let down, and I've been there.  But today, it aint happening.  I dont know what I'm going to do once I hit that weird point, but its gunna be AWESOME.

If you've got any suggestions, lets me know!